think i'm getting lazier and lazier to blog. took lots of drive n motivation just to get this entry going...haha...what an excuse. anyway, it's 4 weeks into CSFC (clinical skills foundation course) and hospital posting has been a great insight into what's coming up in the future years. my SGH tutors have been great and they've been giving great tutorials, albeit only a few though. in here in SGH, at least for me, a lot of things have to be managed by oneself and depending on the tutors is like asking for the death penalty, cos most of them can't be bothered with us, the puny little fries aka medical students. everyday, khai wei and i wld be hunting down nurses in the morn for blood-taking to learn our venepuncture skills (how blood thirsty ah?). and it's unfair, how come he always gets managed to draw patients' blood (their veins r really prominent) while i always have to struggle and wriggle patients' veins only to draw nothing (my patients' veins r really diff, even the nurses and docs can't draw anything either!! in fact i did better than some by managing to draw 2 pathetic ml of blood). after that, we wld coffe ard in the housemen canteen before roaming ard wards 53/54/55/56/57/58, 73/74/77, 63/64 and some wards in block 4 just to find nice patients to take history and do examination on them. cool! some of these patients r really nice while others have really pitiful histories, eg. an SLE patient for 20 yrs or another patient with ESRF for 20 yrs and have no family to depend on. gosh! they make me feel lucky at times. on a more notable hindsight, i love surgery and i think i've told many pple abt it. i love the rush and adrenaline of surgical work (though i've no idea whether i'm up to it nor even capable of it in the 1st place). i love changing up into the comfy OT clothes and watching the operations gg on. it's just so cool and surgeons r the pple who r directly responsible whether a patient survives. and in SGH, every last day of the week aka friday, there is a M&M session where major surgeries over the past week are brought up for discussion to the whole surgery dept. it's very interesting to see op pictures, hearing surgeries done on pple with ecchinococcus infection, cancer and hepatic problems and how surgeries could have been better operated. but it's damn shack to wake up at 5+am in the morn just for this 7am sessions. bish... but for now, all i hope is that my history taking and examination be gd enough to pass my CSFC in 2 weeks time... HELP!